Today marks two months since I went with my little sister C to pick up the newest additions to our family. I can remember the day like yesterday. We went and picked them up and they were just getting to their previous fm's from a visit with their bm and bd. We gathered all of their things loaded everyone in the van and were on our way. I remember thinking, " yay we finally have a placement and they will be with us more than just a couple weeks." On the way home we sang N's favorite song (Deep and Wide) and then Jesus Loves Me. I looked through my mirror and thought this is BLISS. Even though it has only been two months it feels like they have always been a part of our family. This is one of the many tough part of foster care (loving children as your own but knowing they will/could go back with their parents). It's been absolutely craziness at times. The first week was definitely the hardest. It's sweet though now when the kids get home from school they hug each other and act as life never went on without each other in it. There are days when sibling rivalry gets the best of them and days when I look over and they are playing so sweet together. Now that we have all settled into our routine's life is much easier (but not any quieter or any less crazy). We have settled into our "new" normal. For now I will enjoy every moment. Enjoy little giggles and sweet craziness. Enjoying and loving and pouring everything we have into these little guys while they are in our home. Even though we are mommy and daddy now... and may not always have that special spot in their lives, they will always on this side of heaven have a praying mommy and daddy even if they aren't ours "officially."
Really because our children aren't ours anyways... they are His and we are just stewards over them.
So as I pray over the babies from my belly I pray over these little ones too;
Dedicated to you all my sweet little ones.
Love,
Mommy
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