So I haven't updated my blog in a while. There isn't a whole lot to update on concerning our foster/adoption journey. We are kind of in a waiting process. We are waiting to have a home visit. After that home visit then all of our paperwork will be sent to state and then shortly after we will hopefully be receiving our license! I have been anxiously awaiting this! We were hoping to get this done weeks ago but due to some staff being out of the office we had to wait three weeks! So here I sit waiting patiently waiting and wondering how our lives will change over the next year! It is a really exciting adventure! (or longer lol.. I have to look and laugh at how our plans were completely different than the Lords!)
There are days when I wonder why has God called me to this. Not because I don't want to... but because I feel like I fall short in parenting so many times. Why God are you going to in trust me with the life of another child when I sometimes don't have patience for the ones you have given me. Most of all I realize once again that I can't be a good mother, wife, really anything with out his strength! It's when I fall short that his strength shines. It's at the point like right now after trying to "keep" it together for so long with out leaning on him. That I give up and realize I need Him SO much. That I truly am a failure without him! He is what makes me who I am! He is my beautiful you! And I can't do it without his strength and his strength alone.
So as we get a little bit closer to this Journey. I realize that I am going to stop neglecting our time our quiet moments spent together because I won't survive unless I am leaning Solly on him. I can't do it in my own strength! I am opening up allowing him to use me now I need to lean on My Jesus!
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